I am petrified of Christmas Day this year.
It’s the first year we will be around a pool. And to say I’m worried is the understatement of the century. I don’t think the people around me truely understand just how scared I am.
I can’t switch it off.
The thoughts, the what if’s, the scenarios played over and over in my head as I try to sleep.
The fact that there will be a lot of people around just makes me more nervous.
If it were up to me, I’d stand by the pool fence and open and close it for each and every person. But I can’t do that, over protective crazies do that.
Even the thought of something happening brings me to tears I’d honestly rather not have these scenarios run through my head, but I can’t stop them.
And if anyone tells me not to worry, it makes the whole thing worse. Like people aren’t worried enough.
At the end of the day it’s probably easier to go in the pool with him.